ok, so feeling a little better after last night's pity party. we all need a night like that now and again. I think I make things worse in my head sometimes, than they really are. As far as the beard removal and E3000 vs. hour-at-a-time (HAAT) goes... Maybe HAAT will force me not to rush things. And besides, even if my beard was gone 6 months from now, it's not like I'd be ready to go full-time anyway.
To contrast from last night... things that are good about my appearance... let's focus on these, instead, Faline, k?
- I have small hands and feet. My hands are the same length as many of my GG friends, and I'm a size 9.5 in shoes. No one will look at me and think "man-hands."
- I'm 5'9", so while I'll now be considered "tall," I won't be "Too Tall Faline."
- I won't need a scalp advance, or hair implants.
- My face is actually somewhat feminine. I like my eyes a lot.
- I've also gotten compliments on my lips.
- I'm not overweight and likely never will be.
My latest thoughts on full-time, are that I am done paying alimony in September 2011. My financial situation will begin to improve then. So it really ought to be no earlier than that.
I have my kids tonight, Friday a dear friend who I've never met is visiting, Saturday I have support group, Sunday am hanging out with one of my best and most supportive friends. So life isn't all that bad, really.
