I wrote something and decided it was a long, self-indulgent piece of tripe. I'll summarize:
- It's been a while since I've so much as been on a date. Like, almost 3 1/2 years.
- I get pretty damn lonely at times.
- There's not much of an end in sight, at least not until after surgery.
- It sucks.
- I know my transition so far has been smooth, as far as these things go. I try to remain cognizant of that when I get down or have a moment.
- It's helpful in those moments to let the tears out.
- I have to believe it will happen someday, even if it is difficult to envision right now.
That's all.
That said, I truly do hope that everyone who is partnered up had a nice Valentine's Day with their S.O.s. and hopefully next year at this time I'll be writing a different blog.
4 comments:
Bet next year will be different for you. You're adorable, sweetie! Someone is going to notice that.
As you say, "...always genuine. Finally"... your honesty and wonderful personality will come shining through when you feel worthy of that sort of commitment; never doubt it.
Halle
xox
I know it is not the same, but I love you and many others love you too.
“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.”
--Epicurus
Probably my most favorite quote of all time.
When I get all pissed off and anxious and worried about where my relationship is or is not going... I have to step back for a minute and remember the hell from which I came.
My own life? My own home? My own destiny? My own decisions? All a pipe dream just 5 short years ago.
Time moves quickly. Before you know it, you will be a year... two years removed from transition... from surgery... from all of this.
Never forget where you started. And how far you have come. Remember when all of the progress you've already made was just a pipe dream for YOU. You're miles ahead already.
xxoo
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