So I had my first electrolysis appointment this morning. I put some numbing cream on the area, covered it up with Press n' Seal, and set out. It was snowing a lot, and the normally 40 minute drive took about 1:15. As I was driving over, I looked at myself in the mirror, with the wrap on my face, with the heavy beard, thought about all this pain, money, driving, and I felt really depressed/emotional... how am I going to do this... how am I going to climb this mountain? It was kind of a tough ride.
Got to the appointment, laid down, and the first few pricks... you want the picture of non-relaxation? 'Twas me. Maureen had to stop and tell me to relax a little more, breath, etc. I tried to relax, tried to breath, and she got me chatting a little bit. It got 100% better after that. To the point where the half-hour actually flew by. There were a few pricks that hurt quite a bit, but most of them just felt like little pinpricks. We finished up, and I thought to myself, "I can do this." I felt much better. Going forward, I'll do an hour at a time. With my schedule, an hour a week is all I can really manage... let alone afford. :)
I noted as I was driving home, how happy I was. Total contrast from the trip over there. Happy that I've always wanted to do this, and now I am. Happy that I had about a square-inch of clear skin on my cheek. Happy that I am working hard to become myself. Happy that there are such wonderful providers out there like Maureen... a true ally of our community.
It is going to be a long and expensive process, make no mistake about it. But I will get through it. I will get to the top of the mountain.
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Faline
1 comments:
Good job girl =) I soooo know the feeling. I've been doing laser for now though but the same kinds of things are used to prepare. It definitely feels like a mountain sometimes and yet when you have the chance to stop and take a breath of fresh air....it's worth it.
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