After the last few times going out, I really feel like I am over my wig. It's a good wig, but at the end of the day it's still a wig, and it looks like a wig. I still need to wear it when I go out to present as female... without it, I'm not sure exactly what I'd look like... but it's not female. And even when I wear it... sometimes I pass, sometimes I don't. Like today at Banana Republic I got sirred. And it's like, well, what's the point of wearing this wig, which I'd prefer not to wear, if I am going to get sirred? I can get sirred very well without the wig, thankyouverymuch. :P I really feel like I let myself go more and act more like my true self, when I'm not wearing it.
I'm not really looking forward to the hot summertime... between the wig, all the foundation I still need to wear, lack of summer clothes and money to purchase some, and the still hirsute me, I wonder if it makes much sense to spend lots of time attempting to present as female over the summer. I shaved my chest on Thursday, and then again today. Serious razor burn. I can't do that all summer.
I mean, I don't need to do it, present as female, to validate myself. I know who I am. Maybe I just wait 6 months or so, let the hormones work, get more facial hair removed, maybe get my chest lasered, work on my voice, and then re-emerge in the fall/winter. My hair will hopefully be around 6-6.5" then, which ought to help. There are other things I can do to express myself in the meantime.
I dunno. I'll have to let this roll around in my head for a bit and see how it feels. It could be an overreaction to getting "sirred" for the second time.
N.B.: I cannot afford anything in Banana Republic. I go there to try things on to see what works, and find cheaper versions of similar elsewhere.
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Faline
3 comments:
I know what you mean girl about the wig. I had a love-hate relationship with my wig. I loved it because I looked sooo much more feminine with it than without it but I hated it because it was just that, a wig.
Once my hair got long enough to style, I retired the wig to its box without another thought and I haven't looked back.
It's amazing how freeing it is to be able to let go of it and have yet one more thing that I'm not "hiding".
But taking all of this into account, I would not go back and change the time I had with my wig. It was worth it and it served its purpose =)
:)
Now I use very long. But I want my hair cut short to worry.
Intend to try to put a short wig before.
I recommend related web wig.
Which teaching methods and how to clean your place.
Be very happy that growing out your hair is an option, sister. Some of us will never see a girl looking back in the mirror without a wig!
I highly recommend witch hazel after shaving. It will put a serious dent in the razor burn.
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