Lots of crappy stuff running through my head the last couple of days... you name it, it's kept me up at night.

Finances... I am not going to write about it all here, at least the financial part... in a nutshell I've created a financial hole for myself over the past couple of years. I've spent what I want, when I wanted, and now I am in debt up to my eyeballs. And with electro, it is not going to improve for a while. It is going to take time to fix. And I'm not sure how I am going to. But I'll figure it out. I've got no one to blame but myself for this.

Family-wise... I talked to my sister for about an hour on Sunday, she is supportive, actually she somewhat knew. But the reality of this is a shock to her. Got a brief email from Mom saying that she was numb and that she'd need a few days to let it sink in. She did sign it "Love you," so that's something, anyway. I mentioned the email from my Dad in my other post... I have the kids in a couple weekends, and he is going to come down. I'm so glad this is finally out there, no more hiding/lying, etc.

Friends... they were by and large supportive when I told everyone. My friends are all triathletes, and I'm not doing triathlon this season. A major part of the triathlete's social life revolves around training. When you don't train, it's not like you are ostracized from the group, but you just don't spend as much time with them. And that, combined with the fact that I really don't want to go out that much as the old me anymore, isn't a great combination for maintaining these friendships. I need to work on that.

Food... with this financial difficulty, I've put myself on a draconian budget. No eating out for lunch or dinner, only buy things on special... and after 6 days, I am so sick of soup, sandwiches, etc. Blech. I need to get more cheaply creative. I am allowing $20/week for "entertainment," but I doubt I'll use it every week. I am allowing myself an eyebrow threading once a month. That's my little indulgence. No manis or pedis this summer. :(

Fun (not crappy)... am going to support group on Saturday and out to dinner. Am very much looking forward to it since I've not gone out as myself in almost 4 weeks, since my "so over the wig" blog post. I wanted to wear this cute dress I've never worn but it looks like it's going to be too chilly.


I can't do threading! It hurts me so much it makes me want to vomit. I get a 'pain' in my abdomen and queasy and squirm in the chair. I like waxing better as it's much faster.

I'm not racing either. Wish I was there to hang out with you! We could teach each other mani/pedis!

There is something that feels a little "weird" about threading. I kinda know what you mean. I like not having that "HELLO, I JUST GOT MY BROWS WAXED" redness above and below the brows.

We could try to teach each other but it'd be the blind leading the blind. :)

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